How to Manage the Crazy

If you asked me to describe my life in one word right now, it would be: CRAZY.My days are so unpredictable, even if I have everything planned out by the hour, it doesn't matter, there is always something new to throw it off. My to-do list won't stop growing and I've been experiencing stress headaches, I have never gotten those in my life.It's hard to stay grounded when everything seems to heighten your emotions and changes your mood in an instant. The past 2 years I've practiced to RESPOND rather than REACT, but damn, Center Point Energy has me reacting like a 2 year old who missed their nap.I'm not going to lie, I'm tired, but to be honest.... I love this shit.I love the pressure of the challenges (event though at times it might not seem like it). Overcoming obstacles is my forte. My strength is perseverance.My story has been building to this point and the plot just got that much more interesting. If this were easy, there'd be more people doing it. I'm proud of my endurance. The strength I've gained from all of this will only lead to a greater success.The end game; that's what's worth fighting for.For those of you going through the struggles this is how you endure:

1. Surround yourself with your strongest support system, you'll need them when you're knocked down. Don't choose people who will tell you "I told you so," - pick wisely! Choose those who will stick out their hand, help you wipe off the dust (and tears) and then shove you in the back to keep going.
2. Keep your eye on the prize. Figure out WHY you are doing this in the first place and always keep that in the forefront of your mind. AT ALL TIMES.
3. Be quick to forgive yourself when you've made a mistake. Don't dwell too long on the fuck-ups, fix it fast and move along... there's still so much more to do!
4. Don't be afraid to ask for help. You are NOT an expert on EVERYTHING. Let others do some of the work and thinking for you, because at the end of the day, you have a shit ton of other stuff to handle.
5. Recognize your weaknesses fast and build a team that compliments it. You will work so much more efficiently.
6. Listen to your intuition and learn to not second guess it. That weird feeling in the pit of your stomach, that's real! Pay attention to your body cues and how it makes you feel... that's what they mean when they say: "Listen to your gut instinct." It's always 100% accurate!
7. Take a break. If you're sleepy, nap. If you need a moment to self-care, do it! It's ok to step away for a minute, that 15-20 minutes or even a whole day is still productive. There's no point in working hard if you can't even think straight or are too tired to make a decision. Your tasks aren't going anywhere, but your mental health can deteriorate fast if you don't tend to it.
8. PUSH!! When the going gets tough: Pray Until Something Happens. Yes, there is a higher being, ask them for help! Don't be afraid to ask for prayers as well, people LOVE to pray for each other.
9. Get a dog. If you're allergic, find a dog you're not allergic to. There's nothing better than coming home from a long day of work to a creature that is excited to see you and gives you all the kisses for no reason other than that they love you. They won't argue with you, judge you, or call you out. They'll simply ask for food and then sleep peacefully at your feet. Coco has gotten rid of about 95.8% of my anxiety.
10. Most importantly... HAVE FUN! If you can't find joy in the current project you're working on, then give it up. There's no point in going on if you can't find peace and laughter in the process, that just simply means this isn't want you really want to do. As tough as things may get, there are times to celebrate, and if you can't find them.... then find something else to do - this isn't it, Sis.

Yes, life is hard.Yes, reaching goals take a lot of work.I'm not quite there yet, but trust me... I will be and it will all be worth it.

Updates

It's been a while. So much has happened since my last post. I have so many ideas that run through my mind all the time, I'm not sure why I never give myself time to just sort it out through journaling. So here's a quick update on my life:

• Coco my little Malshi (Maltese/Shihtzu mix) is now in my life, she weighs 4lbs.
• I started working on my next project, Third Coast Creamery
• I started working on my side hustle as well: OhCheezus!
• I actually really enjoy cooking, even though I'm not really good at it
• Sticky's Chicken brick and mortar is almost done
• I don't exercise as regularly as I use to
• My hair is pink

I'm not sure why my domain isn't working right now, but as soon as it's up and running again, I will definitely do a better job blogging, even if no one really reads my thoughts.

Growing

I thought I was growing.

I thought I was stronger than the person I was last year.

I thought I've already dug up my deep hidden emotions and dealt with it.I thought I was ready to take over the world.

If that's the case....Then why do I sit here sad and crying.

Why am I feeling sorry for myself because I chose this path.

Why does it hurt so much, when you didn't even do anything to hurt me.

I thought holding back would save me the pain, it totally backfired and now I'm left to pick up the pieces again.

I'm told constantly that I'm a strong, independent person, but why do I feel so week and vulnerable? What does it even mean to be strong?